Progess....

Now we're at the end of March. What has changed? What have I learned? What do I still need to work on?

Since I started with my life coach, I've had to confront a lot of my emotions and habits that are still making me feel stuck. I'm still working on this! Obviously this process is not an overnight deal...I'm transitioning my life to live my purpose - and I mean REALLY LIVE! I don't want to just be "okay" with life. I want to experience life to its fullest. This is an area where I still feel a little "stuck." I want to go everywhere and seriously experience so many different things. But how do you do that when you've started to create a life in a place with people you love? How do you continuously travel when others can't join you?? I guess celebrities do it (but they seem to always get divorced....hmmm). I can't imagine being at the end of my life (old age for sure) and realizing I haven't seen a lot of the world.

I have focused a lot on de-cluttering my home (though it needs more and more!) and taking care of myself. I have been really sick these last 2 weeks (in bed for 5 of those day), so I haven't been to my awesome new gym! I see this as my body ridding itself of all its toxins once and for all before my big 6 week 20 lb challenge begins!

I have been focusing a lot on journaling (and want to do it every day - I'm getting in the practice). I am also focusing on self care - using friendly products, eating high vibration foods, and creating a beautiful space for myself (still working this also). It's coming along, day by day. <3

I found a new job as a server at an awesome restaurant in town! I will be abundant! I took the leap of faith with my $$$ and said yes to a mini Vegas excursion in April with my best friend. I'll be back in my gym in no time (the challenge doesn't start until April 15 but I can use it for free til it starts). I'm trying to continuously upgrade my inner and outer language. How I talk to myself and others. All about self love, baby!

I'm still learning! One of my biggest fears at this point is where to go when my life coaching is done in 2 months and my Unleash Your Inner Unicorn course is through. They are my support, and when those end, I'll need to keep going and continue my purpose! Of course, I will be expressing these fears to my life coach and group. :) I guess I have a fear of the unknown, especially this time when I am investing so much into myself. I want to make a difference in the world, but there is still a wall there...I have no clue! I guess this is when my coach when tell me that it doesn't have to be. By focusing on these first steps of self love, care, changing inner language, de-cluttering anything with negative energy, etc, that will open up the answers for the unknown in time. I need to keep going! :)

I can't wait to see what unfolds in these coming weeks! I know things will be amazing and other things will be INSANELY UNCOMFORTABLE and SCARY! But, we need those to push through our comfort zone and into the life we are meant to live. Thank you all for reading and enjoy your weekend!!

My sources:
Life Coach: Jenna Phillips Ballard (AMAZING WOMAN)
Books -
You are a Badass (Jen Sincero)
Big Magic (Elizabeth Gilbert)
Gym - Results Transformation Center in Reno

XOXO,
Kelly

Tracking my weight and health - end of 1st week

Day One of the gym I weighed myself - haven't done that in a good year or so!

Result = 185 lbs!

In looking at old youtube videos in 2013, I was probably about 145 lbs, give or take. Sooooo, that's the goal, because I looked gorgeous and healthy!!! I'll post weekly check ins regarding weight and health. My diet hasn't changed too much, but I'm getting more conscious of ensuring I get everything I need daily.

PS - I LOVE PIZZA

Starting my life again....

On February 6th, I felt with every fiber of my being that I had to get out of my soul draining desk job. On February 6th, I made the choice to give my 2 weeks notice, even with nothing to show for it. I had savings and some money coming in, and I knew with faith and commitment to myself, I would be okay. Better than okay. I would be AMAZING.

Spring forward 2 weeks....February 17 was my last day at the office. Thank GOD. I was ready. I was committed to finding my life purpose.

Spring forward to today - March 11th! It's been 3 weeks since I left. I've been focusing on bettering myself. Investing in myself. I have absolutely NO IDEA what I want to do for a job, but I still have time. I'm using this time to really understand the direction I want to take my life. Right now I'm learning the HOW and WHY, not the WHAT. So you might be asking what the hell have I been doing these past few weeks?! First of all, I had an amazing weekend of doing the Vagina Monologues with an amazing group of women. My first week focused on that, and I focused on manifesting what I need right now. I'm REALLY delving into the law of attraction and putting out the right energy to receive the same energy back. Everything we want in this life is made of the same stuff....ENERGY. Money is made of energy.

That first week, I manifested (at the perfect time) the money I needed to hire a FREAKING AMAZING life coach ~ Jenna Phillips Ballard. I've been following her for years and my gut told me to reach out to her. I did, and even though I was hesitant to pay for a life coach, I focused my energy on wanting it sooo bad. Guess what?? I GOT IT! Jenna is my life coach for 3 months. I've also joined her 6 week course called "Unleash Your Inner Unicorn," hence the title of this blog. Unicorns are magical creatures, and incredibly unique. This is what we strive to be. Our own selves. (PS: You can follow Jenna on Facebook - she always has free, incredibly inspirational videos she posts every week live - Do it!)

For the last 2 weeks I've been focusing on shifting my energy and changing my language to my life and my situations. It's not easy! This is getting rid of everything that has been ingrained in me. Some thoughts I will no longer listen to are these:

1. Money is stressful, it's too hard to be wealthy.
2. You can never make money in the arts. You will always be a struggling artist going down that road.
3. You are average.

Those are a few thoughts out of WAY too many negative thoughts (and every day normal thoughts that we've learned in our society). Well, HELL NO! I am NOT average. I am a unique, amazing, beautiful and independent woman who can do anything in this world. Other people can, why not me? WHY NOT ME?

I joined an AWESOME gym called Results Transformation Center here in Reno. I know a bunch of people who have done the 20 lbs in 6 weeks challenge and have succeeded. I just may do that! But for now, I started 6 days ago and have worked out 6 days in a row. They really KICK YOUR ASS! Whew! Tomorrow is my day off, and then I'm right back on the bandwagon! I'm getting my health back in line, as I have gained about 40 pounds in the last 4 years...it really does creep up on you, especially when you're unhappy with your life.

So I've got my life coach, my Unleash Your Inner Unicorn course, my new gym to get my healthy body, a course online about handling your money and getting rid of all your debt, AND starting up my singing again on Youtube (see the link below) and wherever I can find. My perfect job is coming, and the money will be overflowing. I'm helping myself now so my cup will be overflowing to help others. That's what life is about - being joyful and helping our fellow human beings.

I think I've covered it! Here are the books I'm reading if anyone wants to check them out:

1. You are a BADASS. How to Stop Doubting Your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life. - by Jen Sincero
2. Reinventing the Body, Resurrecting the Soul - How to Create a New You. - by Deepak Chopra
3. Big Magic - By Elizabeth Gilbert

If anyone wants to ever talk, please feel free to reach out! I am more than willing to share all my knowledge I gain from this experience. And trust me....it is NOT easy! I've definitely cried through this, but in turn I'm learning a great deal on how to treat my negative emotions (not HIDE them, but confront them). Powerful stuff.

Thank you all! Next post will probably come next week when I have more new things happening! <3

Kelly

Youtube Link: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCZSeZWjmBHLSJ2shRQsN4mQ